My Reason

Probably a strange name I'm quite sure, the whole point of me starting a blog is mainly to try and keep a track of my life and the endless things that happen in it!! I want my children and family to be able to read this when we are older and realise that they are and always will be my reason for being here.

Saturday, 16 October 2010

My Rainbow!


I am so proud of Hannah, she started Rainbow's recently and took her promise last night.  I was quite emotional at the meeting when we were watching her.  I could even hear her saying her promise which I thought was good as most children her age when faced with a room full of people and strangers tend to whisper.  Nana came with us as she wanted to see it too and so did Andrew (who was very good even though he was imprisoned in his pushchair)  Unfortunately dad was at work so he didn't get to see it but I took lots of photo's!


Congratulations Hannah on joining the guiding world.  I can only hope that you get as much pleasure from your new adventure as I did when I was younger. xxxxx

Monday, 11 October 2010

Life!!!!!

What is it about life???  Just when you think that things are going well, something happens and things start to get expensive.  We discovered on Saturday that we have quite a major hole in the front of our roof - seriously - it looks like we've been torpedoed, or something has fallen off a passing plane and gone through the roof (I suppose it would have carried on falling through the house if that had happened) maybe it's down to a fat pigeon or sea gull that our neighbours insist on feeding.  Must have landed on the slates and either gone straight through or surfed down on the loose ones until they fell off the roof. AAArggghhhh!!

Just as we seem to move forward with money something pushes us further back and puts the nice things even further out of my reach.  Bit of a miserable post this!  maybe it's because I'm due to go and see my counsellor tomorrow and I really don't want to go.  I actually feel like crying at the thought.  She's in Howden at the Sure Start centre tomorrow and I'm not even sure I know where that is - in fact I don't know where it is.  I could get the metro there but I'm really not up for that at all- getting a knot in my stomach just thinking about it - but it is apparently within sight of the metro station so sense would dictate that is the way to go.  But I don't want to. At all.  So my next option is to drive, with the sat nav directing me.  But I don't want to.  I know this woman (Brenda) is supposed to be helping me but I almost feel like I'm beyond help sometimes, and that I don't need help and I want to get myself through my mess on my own (when I know in my heart of hearts I can't) 

What to do????  It could be that a total lack of money is bringing me down or more likely the absolute lack of sleep!!  Thanks to mini Surtees for that one!!  Poor mite has got three molars coming in at the same time and as such I think he is in a fair bit of pain.  Mike only got about 6 hours sleep on Saturday through Sunday and that was split into two shifts.  I felt quite sorry for him as he was on late shift at the weekend plus he is going down with a cold.

Hannah started Rainbow's on Friday night and absolutely loved it!  They made dragonflies and found out about their habitat.  As such, I was sent over the road to Outdoor World on Saturday (which is when we discovered the hole in the roof) to purchase her uniform as she will be taking her promise this Friday!!  Pretty fast going but there is a reason, there are celebrations on 20/10 to celebrate the end of the centenary year of the girl guiding movement.  At these celebrations they will be renewing their promise and Pam (Rainbows leader) thought it would be a daunting experience for them to do that when they haven't officially done their promise with the pack.  So it will be 20/10/2010 soon! I love things like that! Yesterday it was 10/10/10!  Pretty awesome really, these things only happen once a century so I'll be the saddo on 20/10/2010 looking at the look at 20.10 pm!!  A date like this won't happen again until next year on 20/11/2011!!

There I've talked myself into a better mood - thought this would be quite therapeutic!